Where are you now, when I need you around.

Climax.

A snippet of usher's song lyric. Why? Because that line describes all the things I want to utter right now.

First thing first. Sekarang gue lagi mood-moodnya update blog, I have no idea why this desire came up by all of a sudden, all I can ever think of is, gue bosen. Rutinitas sekolah dibulan puasa emang nggak ada toleransi, at all. They don't have any idea how I could really use some ice tea any minute now to finally quench the thirst I have been fighting with. Seriously, nowadays, I hardly ever see the slightest bit of an overcast weather. It's like the weather has been playing out with the idea of me wanting to verbalise an outburst of indignation. Not that the devils inside me have got me trapped into juvie-type, but it's literally exhausting.

Recently, I think I've been having an insomnia case. My sleeping pattern isn't the same as it used to. I have always managed to go to sleep above 12 A.M, it's not good, they said. But what did I do wrong? I only took a nap for a couple of hours, but then it turned out nowhere near normal.

When did the insomnia begin?

I don't know.

Well by I don't know I mean it's not that I literally don't know a thing about my own ruined-sleeping-pattern case, believe me I do know, but I'm just not being certainly positive about the explanations.

You know, those days when you couldn't sleep at night because you just didn't want to end a conversation, but had run out of anything to talk to? The longer the night is, your mind simply refuse to shut the hell down and it just takes your feelings into a deeper, deeper, and deeper level and... Sometimes it just makes you forget a little while about the fact that your eyebags is getting bigger. Have I come to the realization that reality could be much more wonderful, if you had someone to unburden yourself to? Have I told you how your life could be more colorful if you had that one, absolute person who simply sees how messed up your face is when you're having a bad day, but still awkwardly call you the love of his life? Have I made myself clear to explain all the little things about you, could really lighten up my day in just a blink of an eye? Have I been underestimating anything that relates to your imperfection, by saying that you're the only one who couldn't take my mind away from living the life to the fullest?

When the wind blow away all the shades, where does the happiness go?

When the peak of a mountain comes up, where does the bird fly away?

When a song remains one thing, where else can it be fitted in, other than heart?