And the truth is?

Well, hello.

Minal aidzin walfaidzin, to all of you who had celebrated eid mubarak in a couple of days ago.

Every human in this world is bound to make mistakes, forgive me God for I have sinned, we may have a different religious views, but we are all actually entitled to one and we all know that this is undoubtedly the only way that leads to prosperous lives.

Hmmm, gimana ya. Gue bingung mau pour out all the spine-chilling stories ini kemana other than this blog, so... If by far you are okay with all the so-called cock and bull stories I have told, here we go.

Well, there's a saying that says "absence makes the heart grow fonder." I admit I was much of a presence-seeker creature that longs for a figure to lean on. And yes, this saying really does make quite a change for me. Have you ever waited for someone so long it hurts? Bet you had. If it turns out to be the way you expected it to, the feeling would be amazing. It's beautiful, it's peaceful, because it's like your dreams being captured to the reality. But if it turns out the other way around, it still feels wonderful... Yet it hurts. We'll feel wounded even.

It's quite magical I think, the second you think the person you've been hoping for pops out to greet you by a simple "hello", the second the word invigorates your mind (and soul, yeah?) it might just be a simple greeting, but you'll never know if it influences you greatly. Have you ever feel comforted by a person just by knowing that the person exists out there? Have you? Have you? It's cray the way your mind buzzes like, "like please, do not depend your state of moodiness on him, he's just dropping off because he's bored, nothing else." and your conscience is like, "he's the one, when nobody else is there, he's the person you've got yourself trapped, it's okay to keep him beside you." and suddenly you're in a complete strange of maze.

I don't know how to act anymore though. So many questions scattered, like, how would I cope up once he's gone? How would I manage to restrain myself away from the thought of not wanting to lose? About how would I be able to sleep tight at night without thinking what happened yesterday, what's happening today, and what'll happen tomorrow. How would I... Abandon the person I've got myself fall in love with? It's complicated isn't it. How they haven't even started saying they love you, but you already know because that's how they make you feel. They make you feel loved.

Gatausih ya. People have different perspectives, and I'm not gonna forbid them to judge what I've written. It may conduct cheesy, whatever-the-fuck-you-think lines, but that's what the truth says.